Freedom starts on the inside. Freedom is not having the liberty to do what you what to, but it is the having the power to choose whether you want to do it or not. Freedom is to say that I don't need a girlfriend now as it is early, not because I have to force myself to restrain. Freedom is to be free from the issues of pride, to flow with accordance to the holy authourity.
Stewardship is not about gaining possession, it's about what you'll do to the things that's entrusted to you. Stewardship is building God's kingdom and not our own, so please let it go when He wants it back.
Leadership is not about titles, For whatever titles is given on earth will not be received in heaven. Leadership is working and functioning like a leader even when there's no titles bestowed upon one. Leadership is giving leverage and adding value to the people under you, maybe even to the extend of them surpassing you.
To backslide, to leave God and His family, to leave all the destiny that God has in store for you, to turn your back on God because of trivial matters, that's the epitome of small-mindedness and selfishness. You don't affect just yourself when you decide to leave God, so go get a grip. It's those who finished the race that receives the crown of life, not those who ran spectacularly but fell in the end.
Wake up dead man, I've seen too much just to let you go. My hurt is nothing, but my heart bleeds for Jesus....